I continue to be angry with sarah. she has managed to be the biggest bitch of all time. I wrote a letter to her that i will never send. she is narcissistic and disgustingly selfish most of the time. i will not stand for it any longer, and i don't have to be friends with her. i hope to eventually be like conor, or heed his advice, on the matter - be wherever you are, exuding love, and if she wants it, she can come and get it, but you're fine no matter what. i'm not there yet. today i'm still a litttle bitter, but i feel a bit of that released after writing the letter. i want to move into a place where she isn't a big deal to me, but i can't say that i'm at that place yet.

today i'm happy because it's friday, and eric got paid, and i can go get items we need. it's been a tight week financially. i always hate those weeks because i feel deprived, but i never really am deprived. i'm totally fine.

i missed out on dinner plans with everett last night; we had to cancel due to eric's illness (sinus infection). everett was really sweet about it, and nicely expressed how twilight wouldn't be the same without us. he also wrote us this really sweet text the other day about how grateful he is to have met us and whatnot. great text. i'll be very happy to see him tonight and continue building our friendship. i hope he gets to go to burning man.

i hope tommy is able to attend eric's show tonight. i'd like to see him. it was good to see him the other night. i wanted to continue going out that night with him, but i eventually realized/decided it was stupid to stay anywhere near sarah. i'd had enough of her being a bitch...to both me and eric.

i continue to feel bad and worried about not having a job. i plan to begin looking while i'm in ga next week, if i have the time with the computer. i at least need to set up profiles on monster and career builder because apparently that's where the more private institutions are advertising. i REALLY want to work somewhere private.